9/11

I can't watch the events of 9/11 without crying and feeling a little sick.

I don't think I'll ever be able to forget where I was that day, or how I felt when I had heard the news. I was sleeping when my mom came in and woke me up to watch it. I cried a lot that day and for several days after each time I thought about all of the little children who had lost a parent. I cried for all of the wives who had lost a husband or for the husbands who had lost a wife. I cried for those who braved going into danger to rescue those who were trapped, knowing that they wouldn't return. I cried for all of the heartache and loss as in disbelief I watched the events unfold before me.

Today I was watching a tribute and the background music was "God Bless the USA". That song always causes me to catch my breath and say a prayer of thanks for all of those brave men and women who have died defending us and who are defending us now.

I haven't ever really told Joshua about 9/11, I felt he was too young. But, today he watched the tribute with me and I felt a pang of sorrow that part of his innocence was being crushed as was his confidence in people. The tribute wasn't graphic, but it was touching and did cause me to get choked up, which caused him to ask a lot of questions. I answered them in kid terms to help him understand. He didn't understand why bad people would do that. He asked why those people in the buildings didn't call the Superheros. At about that same time, the video flashed to the firefighters as they entered the burning, collapsing buildings. I told him that those are the superheros in real life. All of the brave men and women who go against reason and fear to help a person in need, or who defend our freedom, they are the true heroes in real life. He stated, with question in his voice, "good thing there aren't any bad guys in this world anymore." I said, again, with a pang of sorrow, "well, there are still some bad guys, but there are a lot of good guys too. The good guys will win in the end." To this, Joshua replied, "well, it's a good thing there are people like daddy who become lawyers to put bad guys in jail." Yes, Joshua, it's a good thing there are men like your daddy.

I pray for our Savior's return. I pray for peace. I pray that this world will find hope in our Savior's return. And yes, the good guys will win in the end!