Ramblings Part Two

I know what you're thinking... not again.  Well, one more set of ramblings and I'll call it good. 

1. Church was hard today.  Mercedes is right at that age where she should be in nursery but isn't 18 months old yet.  My goodness, she kept me up and down, and up and down, throughout the entire three hours.  I had ladies coming up to me quoting me scriptures about how the Lord is aware of us and our trials.  Ha!  I didn't know that I looked so worn out.  What does that say?!  I guess I need to smile more.  I really haven't been doing bad, I'm just feeling very tired and Mercedes is one ball of energy lately. 

2.  I think I am still pregnant.  I am 75-95% sure.  The tests keep coming back positive, and I am starting to feel the symptoms.  Fatigue, nausea, and food aversions.  I'm still spotting (the color is brown though, so that's good) every once in awhile.  But, that doesn't say much because I spotted throughout my entire first trimester with Joshua and Mercedes. 

3.  I watched the most inspiring (and sad) movie last night.  It's called Letters to God.  I would suggest all to watch it (except you, Michelle--and maybe Jessica if she's having a hard time with death at that moment).  It's a bittersweet movie about a boy with cancer.  I know, you're thinking how is that inspiring???  Well, it's based on a true story about a little boy named Tyler and how he dealt with his terminal disease.  He wrote letters to God and decided that he was a warrior and his quest was to help everyone come back to God.  It was SO inspiring.  I can't even tell you!  But, it is sad. 

4.  When we all thought that I was going to miscarry, Joshua said to me, "don't worry, you'll have a new baby in your belly on Saturday."  And, "I told daddy to be careful about lying on your belly.  I told him it could hurt the baby that is in there."

5.  I love Fall.  The weather here is already changing.

6.  If you came over to my house right now, you'd see a sink full of dishes, toys (and clothes) strewn across the floor, a half-eaten hard-boiled egg on the table, and shoes EVERYWHERE.  How is the Sabbath day supposed to be a day of rest when I see a million things that need to be done?!

7.  I speak in church next week.  I already have my talk prepared. 

8.  Will I ever stop getting breakouts?!  My goodness!  I am 28 years old!  Aren't zits a thing of the past by now????

9.  I am TERRIFIED of cats.  I know, that seems silly.  But, sadly, it is the absolute truth.  Cats scare me.  I was attacked by one when I was babysitting like ten years ago and the memory has me scarred for life.  I think all cats are out to get me.  The way they look at me with those menacing eyes--the way those eyes follow me--the way they slink along on the ground like they're looking to pouce... it all kind of freaks me out.  I'm trying not to pass this along to my children.  But, the other day when a cat was in our driveway as we pulled into it, I could not get out of the car until it was out of sight.  And, even still I was constantly checking over my shoulder as I got the kids out of the car.  I am afraid, literally afraid, of cats.