Everything is Perfect... Ramblings

Proceed with caution:  You may gag during some gooshy parts...

You know how you sometimes have those weeks when everything just seems so perfect?  I've had one of those... maybe it's because my "time of month" is finally over (you know how that goes), or maybe I am just looking at the world through rosy glasses, but whatever it is... everything just seems to be so good.

I'm not trying to boast, really I'm not, I just want to record how awesome I feel about life right now.  Sometimes when life feels this good, it gives me anxiety (I know, like sheesh, why can't I just sit back and enjoy the ride??).  Sometimes I get anxiety because the voices in my head start telling me that because everything is great, then something really bad must be about to happen.  Naturally.  Because, that would make perfect sense, right?!  Ha!  So, rather than get anxiety (and to shut those voices up) I am just going to be thankful and count all of my many blessings (or at least a few of them, it would be impossible to count them all).

I am blessed.  I don't know why I am so blessed, pehaps I am undeserving, but I am blessed.

For starters, I have always gone to church.  When I was five, I asked my mom when church would finally give us a summer vacation.  She laughed and told me that we will always go to church.  There was no such thing as a summer vacation from church.  That came as a shock to my five year old mind.  But, now, I am grateful for my faithful parents and I am grateful that I always went to church.

As a child, my parents encouraged me to always pray that one day I would marry in the temple.  Their thinking was that if I always said it in my prayers, then a temple marriage would always be on my mind.  I did pray for a temple marriage in all of my prayers, and it always was on my mind--I knew that for me, I would marry in the temple when the decision came time to be married.  So, that encouraged me to always keep myself pure.  My decision to be married in the temple, was probably the best decision I ever made.  Because I know my family is eternal.  That brings me peace of mind in a troubled world.  No matter what, my husband and my children are mine, no matter what--we are sealed together, forever.  FOREVER!  That's a HUGE blessing.

I have felt such a strong love for my husband recently.  It's always been strong, but I feel it even more strongly right now.  He is a lot of the reason as to why I am posting this post today.  He gives me so much love.  Sometimes I feel guilty because I really am spoiled.  I knew when I met him that he was great, and I knew we would build a wonderful life together.  He was everything I thought my husband would be, and he was more than that too.  But, man!  My expectations have already been surpassed and we've only approached the five year mark into eternity.  It's gonna be an awesome ride!  That's not to say that we don't have disagreements every once in a while, or that I don't get frustrated when he leaves his clothes right next to the hamper instead of in it, but we do have something absolutelywonderful.  He really is awesome.  I still feel like his blushing bride.  He makes it a point to never let the honeymoon end.  By that I mean he is really good at finding different ways to tell me that he loves me.  He is awesome at surprising me with different unexpected gifts to show he cares.  The other day he did the dishes, and cleaned the apartment because he heard me lament over the amount of dishes I was going to have to do.  When I walked into the other room, he did them--all of them--every single one!  I could go on and on about him.  But, I have another journal for that. 

My children are the coolest kids ever.  Joshua wakes me up so stinkin' early, and I will be honest, some days it is hard for me to be able to greet him with a smile.  No matter how dark I make his room, he still manages to get up by six.  But, I sure do love that kid.  I love how he uses his imagination in some of the funniest ways.  He likes to stretch out his arms like an airplane and when he goes really fast, he opens and closes his fists to show the "foke" (smoke) coming out of the airplane (because, didn't you know that only the fast airplanes make exhaust?).  While he plays, he's very good at paying attention to the details of what he is pretending to do.  When he "washes" the rocks (while pretending they are fruit) he makes sure to turn on and off the pretend water from the pretend faucet.  When Daddy pretends to be a truck that Joshua is riding on, Daddy must put his hands in fists while he is crawling around because those are the wheels, flat hands cannot be wheels... just so you know.  He is protective of me.  When I am being tickled, or when my brother in laws try to throw me in the pool, Joshua ALWAYS tries to save me.  He is compassionate and loving.

Mercedes.  Ahhh, my little Miss M.  Oh how I adore her.  She smiles and she laughs at almost anything, sometimes you have to move her thumb out of her mouth in order to see the smile, but it's there.  She's really good at pulling herself up nowadays, and my aching back is hoping that she is close to walking soon.  I cannot believe that she will be one year old next month.  Where did the time go?  Seriously, where?!  Her favorite word (in fact her only word) is Dada.  Maybe it's because she loves her daddy sooo much.  Whatever it is, she likes to say dada.  I love how she shakes her head "no" whenever I say the word "yes".  It's kind of a game, and she smiles the whole time she shakes her head.  She waved at me for the first time yesterday.  So cute.  She doesn't enjoy books as much as Joshua does, maybe it's because I'm not as good about reading to her as I was about reading to Joshua at this age.  But, I am trying to be better. 

Yes, my children are a huge blessing.

We've been accepted into law school.  That's a blessing.  My smart and willing husband is about to embark on probably what will be a rather tough journey.  But he does so with optimism.  I admire that.  While I am sure that it will be difficult to be a wife and mother who rarely sees her husband, I am going to do my best to support and encourage.  I know we will be blessed for our efforts, and even that knowledge is a blessing.  I'm scared to move so far away, but I am excited for the adventure a new place brings (so long as it doesn't bring cockroaches with it).   

Perhaps the Lord is preparing me for something that lies in the future, or maybe I am just blessed to be feeling optimistic.  Regardless, I am thankful for my many blessings.  I am glad to be feeling so much in love with life.